Friends..AGAIN!!
OK…I know i’ve done a blog on friends before, but hey…I DON’T CARE!
However this one is slightly different. This one is about…that’s right…online friends.
So I have a friend (online) who I’ve known for about 6 months now. Yes I only started talking to him at first cos he was fiiinnne!! Shallow I know. But time went on and it turned out he was actually a pretty decent guy. From the first day we spoke, we’d talk if not everyday, then every other day for a bit. Nothing too much, just about the day we’ve had and obviously getting to know eachother more. It carried on like this for a while I like to think.
So 6 months have now passed and i have still not met him…we’ve passed eachother once or twice, but never actually met up and sat down to have a chat. Saying this, I think our connection is getting stronger and stronger..he is actually the only reason why I stay up late at night/early morning (i’m talking 5/6am here)…we talk for hours and hours and then look at the time…the hours literally fly by.
I have NEVER spoken to a man that I have so much in common with..and i don’t just mean things like food and drink…i’m talking music, books, views on society, views on our own lives. This man intrigues me as everyday passes…he’s like a book…so much to tell and so much to learn from. I’ve told him things my parents don’t know. I’ve told him things NO ONE knows, yet he still sees me as the person I am now.
We had a chat last night/this morning and both agreed that we are the most important thing to happen in eachother’s lives for years. This man to me is pretty much the boyfriend I never had (for my sins)…I find it hard not to get more and more attracted to him…not just in the physical sense either. Problem there is, he has a boyfriend…but anyway, this man has inspired me to do things…in fact if it wasn’t for him, I wouldn’t be blogging..he helped me find my voice.
Today I was bored and was lying on my bed listening to some music…and a track came on that reminded me of him…a track I know is his favourite by that particular artist. As I heard it, a huge smile spread across my face and yes he crossed my mind..I then had to stop myself for a minute…I mean I’ve not even met the guy yet.
So my question….is it REALLY possible for two online friends to have such a connection??? Is it really possible for someone to have this kind of effect on another person? Or have I got myself in to deep?? I know I will never let our friendship end because of this, and I like to think I’m a pretty head strong person. Yet this man has had this effect on me like NO ONE ever has before…especially online! What the hell is going on!??!?! I wouldn’t say I’m falling for him as such..in fact I don’t know what I would say I am doing…but I don’t think it’s falling…it’s something I don’t recognise…and it’s scaring the hell out of me, yet it feels nice at the same time.
Confusing eh??? 
